I cleared my wallet today, tearing and disposing off those CCD bills, movie tickets and ATM receipts. It took me to the wonderful moments I used to be into few months back. That day, on 2nd June'09, as the guard waved the signal, he insinuated me to momentarily forget those comfortable and joyful days I was into, in the cyber city. But I couldn't stop myself doing so. I gaped at the New Delhi railway station, receding in size. The trees, the farms, the electric poles, the waving kids - all bidding me good bye with a mysterious smile. I had no option but to reply with a grin. It was a self chosen change for me which, at that moment, was not at all pleasing. I was deliberating hard on my decisions. I was leaving all those wonderful moments lived there with people whom I loved to be with. Those people had become a part of my life. I still believe the fact that it's the people who make the place worth living and not the place by itself. This is the reason, a city like Gurgaon -which has nothing as such to offer, except a spectacle of a concrete jungle which I used to detest badly - has become one of the nicest places I have ever visited in my life so far.
After around 2 and a half months from this journey as I write this from Goa Institute of Management, where I am currently in, to pursue my PG course of 2 years, I find myself confused and indecisive. Confused by instincts, confused by my desires, confused by my purpose in life. Does someone really think that he or she has just a single objective in life? If someone says so, I refute it outrightly. Ok, let me put it this way which might sound a bit cliched - At any point of time, you have an aim in your life, you run for it badly. You think about it day and night. You put your best efforts to achieve it. But what once you get it? There's another greed to run after. Another short term objective to target for. Another milestone to reach and before we actually realise what we want from our life, it becomes too late. Am I being too philosophical? Ammm!! I dunno. Perhaps Yes.
This is not the first time that someone is writing all these stuffs, many have written it in various forms numerous times. What is the thing to note about here is do we really deliberate on these aspects? Aah. Ya I heard your synchronous NOs. You know what, I left those back, whom I value the most and whom I don't know whether I would be able to meet again in my life. I really doubt that by March' 2011 when I would be leaving this place, I would be content. May be or May be not. Aah, c'mon. Lets move now - wasn't this what you all wanted to say to me. See, I guessed that. :)
I have to stop all this nonsense as the coming Monday is showing its scary face studded with Externalities Theory underlying in the "Congestion Charges in Central London" and the works of B.F. Skinner in the concepts of Organizational Behaviour and loads of other stuffs. I sign off here with yet another short term plan - an obligation that I have to meet and not the purpose I have to achieve in life. Take care all. May God gives us the sanity to achieve the state of self realisation. Lollzzz :)
